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QUARANTINE
i want to make a clean slice
the length of your trunk,
and i'll pull back the skin
and wash you clean of the infestation
that is eating you raw.
and i want to feel your sickness,
texturizing
the smooth
the ridge
the curve
the moisture
the filth.
i want to know you -
such a host,
so giving to the parasitic manifestation
you nourish.
you taste of salt and
purified disgust,
but i relate to the addiction
because i love this filth -
to taste, to touch,
and to remove it for my own,
but no worries;
when my rummage is finished,
i'll fold your pale skin
back over your sunken chest.
the black seams, only a
justified addition,
marking this
condemned territory.

THIRSTY
i am tasting the lake of you,
salty and dirty
and filled with all the foreign particles
that i used to know.
the hard twigs, splintering my lips -
just like your collarbone at night,
biting your skin
until my passion dwelled
inside you -
but it didn't end there,
and it doesn't still.
i miss licking words on your chest,
smearing the black ink
all over your pale, inviting body.
and as i taste this lonely ocean,
savoring the stagnant flavor in my mouth,
i ache for the taste of your fingers,
salty from a hard night's labor.
and the freshness that comes
reminds me of your rainy hair
whipping across my face.
and the ill bacteria brings me back to the
horrible infestation
living in me,
that is you.


FALLEN
diving down
diving deeper deeper down
in my head
in my den
in my ugly ugly sin
aching on and aching in
sick of you until ten
and in my mind
and in my car
hating you where'er i go
whisper every single minute
i hate the sight of you
and every every single time
you say you love me too
but i'm down
way down inside
and the walls are slick
as slick as ice
and i'm stuck
stuck way down deep
and my eyes
my eyes will make me live
and i poke and i gouge
and try like fire
but they stay forever
and show me tonight
and tonight is what i truly truly hate
because i'm stuck stuck still
in this sick mindset
and the lake of decay
is climbing my pantlegs
wetting my knees
and destroying my head
but it's common to me
to see where i'm at
the usual place
that holds me down
and i'm soaked and cold
and dirty and sick
muddy with the hatred
that plagues me like sin


MASKED
moth wings, broken on my eyelids,
shielding me from the painful light,
serving more uses than they could maintain,
just like the red robin, serving up her
broken beak
for my mistaken nuances.

THE LESS YOU KNOW
i want to abide in your mouth
i want to live there
i ache to be there
with your teeth holding me in tight
clenched and ready
chomping down on my crispy bones
i want to sleep under your tongue
and swim in your saliva
sugar coating me with your bitter lemons
and i want to jump on your uvula
hang on tight
like it's my life guard
my vine-rope in the jungle
and swing back and forth
until my courage rises like you do
and nice
i'm down your throat
bouncing on the ridges
now swimming
in your soft and warm
belly
and the acid feels tingly
and it hurts my eyes
but it's worth it to be inside you
where i'm finally safe
where you can't touch me but
i can touch you


ABSYNTHE
when i sip you, a murderous rage unfolds. i've been deemed unsafe when your heavy hangover unleashes its claws into my throat.
sweet and cool on my fevered lip,
your opalescence
lingers long after you're gone.